Ever since I had bought new clothes, I could not wait to wear them. Once I arrived home, I diligently ironed all of them and hung them behind my bedroom door with a huge grin on my face. Yes, I did that. Who wouldn't? People would be lying if they said they never pictured themselves wearing the clothes they just bought.
So, today, for school, I dressed myself in this red sleeveless top with black accents, completing the look with a red cardigan and a not-so-new black slacks. Really, I felt like a new woman! The feeling of the newly-worn fabric to my skin felt wonderful!
After I had crossed the road, something suddenly clicked inside my mind. From the way I dressed, won't I stick out like a sore thumb? I mean doesn't the colour combination of red and black remind anyone of a ladybug? As soon as those awful thoughts came to my mind, my face paled. Oh no! I would not want people giving me odd looks and snickering at my odd sense of fashion. Then I had wished that I had asked for a second opinion before wearing the outfit for the day. So, I shrugged it off and headed to the train station, but still with the thoughts about how a crowd would react to my outfit in my mind.
When I boarded the train, I went inside to where there was plenty of space and stood there while facing the direction where the doors would open. Usually, I preferred to stand up as opposed to sitting down, even when there were vacant seats available. To me, I think other people may need the seats more than me. So, I stood straight while gripping the handrail above me loosely, listening to the music blasting in my ears.
From the corner of my eye, I noticed an old woman ,who was previously staring into space, lifting her gaze towards me and throwing me strange looks. Oh my, has someone already figured out that my outfit made me resemble a certain insect? I maintained a calm and collected demeanor outside but inside, I began to panic, my heart beating wildly in my chest.
A few minutes later, I heard a loud cough from a man behind me despite the loud music in my ears. Then I started to think - did he just choke after seeing my outfit of choice? I glanced to my side, hoping that I could find the culprit there. Were other people starting to notice too? I had no idea of knowing! Suddenly, I felt self-conscious and grew worried but I thought to myself, 'This must be a personal fable that I learnt in class' where I think that the world revolves around me and despite my age, I still have not outgrown it. Immediately, the self-consciousness fades away and I alighted from the train with confident steps and chin up.
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