Many thoughts automatically rush to my mind when I am attending lessons in school or when I am on the bus or train. My most favourite thoughts are when I have ideas for my own stories because I instantly get excited for them. Suddenly, I wished that I have the extraordinary ability to teleport to my room and start working on those stories, stemming them from the very ideas that mysteriously filled my mind.
However, once I reached home, that feeling of excitement disappeared and the eagerness in me is only a slowly dying light. And then, I am back to square one. Just like the blank page before me, my mind becomes blank. Where did my muse go? How dare it tease me whenever I go out only for it to just bail on me when I am blessed with spare time to write? I grumbled these words to myself.
I hate having writers' block for obvious reasons. First of all, the completion of the chapter would get delayed and I do not like that one bit due to the fact that all of my plans would get pushed back too. Not to mention, the readers of my story would be kept waiting and I hate to keep people waiting.
Of course, you'd be asking...if I hate being held in this situation so much, why can't I just put more effort in putting out words into the document or paper? Well, let me tell you something. This is not some piece of excrement that I can just force it to come out. I know very well that a terrible draft is better than no draft but it is hard to execute that in real life for one sole reason. I am scared of making mistakes, even if they are intentional. I don't like to write something, thinking that I am allowed to make as many mistakes as I can. So, the problem lies with me. I just have a perfectionist mind. Too many expectations that I probably cannot meet, what with my many human flaws.
Even when I am meeting my daily goal of churning out short stories in my blog till I could see the scroll bar, I still face writer's block. It is a horrible feeling. But at the same time, I think that writer's block is going to be a recurring problem for all writers, no matter their skill levels and experience levels. The way to break out of this wall is extreme persistence. The persistence to see the chapter to its completion but with quality writing and ideas. Not doing it half-heartedly. We should not use 'writer's block' as an excuse for ending a story or a chapter unsatisfactorily. If we are still not satisfied with the final product, then take a break and come back after to read it again. Make the final editing and look over it again, smile then publish it. Easy as pie. Then again, it's easier said than done.
Of course, we are all works in progress so hopefully this wall would be easier to break with more experience and as time goes by!
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