To be honest, Heather had no idea how it all led to this feeling of utter despair. Ask anyone and all of them would say Heather is a ball of sunshine who spreads happiness and smiles wherever she goes. Unfortunately, those who say such things only know one side of her.
The truth is, Heather feels lonely most of the time. Underneath the huge smiles that reach her eyes, there hides a sadness within her. Nobody else but her knows about this. While everyone else has the notion that Heather behaves exactly like she does outside with others, they remain oblivious to her heart breaking little by little.
Sometimes, she thought that her heart was about to burst any moment now without warning. It was hard to tell. There were times when it became too much to bear that tears involuntarily formed around her eyes. When concerned people asked whether she was crying, she simply shrugged it off, claiming that her laughter brought out tears out of her at times before bursting into peals of laughter.
Oh, how fake she was.
Inside, she just feels so miserable. Her mind would sometimes drift to the negative realm when she stared into space too long so she put a lot of effort into becoming really attentive to her surroundings. Was someone telling a joke? Okay, then laugh regardless of whether it was funny or not. Was someone crying? Of course, it was obvious to comfort them! Almost always, Heather was able to cheer the upset person up. Once, there was this grateful person who was envious of Heather's bright and cheerful personality and wanted to steal some of her optimism. Heather would just laugh it off, but because it was such an ironic statement when she herself was in need of some positive thoughts.
Each time she stepped into her house, loneliness gripped her instantly and her heart sank. It must have sank into a bottomless pit because she literally could feel no emotions. Trudging towards her bedroom, she collapsed onto her bed, her body suddenly feeling heavy. As she clutched her bed sheets tightly, she sobbed and sobbed. With her face still pressed onto the wet sheets, her hand reached out to grasp the photo frame that she would always place beside her pillow.
Gazing up at it, Heather felt her heart breaking at the sight of her family photograph. Her mother. Her father, Her little brother. All huddled up together like a happy family. However, it would only be a sad memory. No matter how many times she tried, she could not tear her gaze away from the expensive car behind them.
The car that was responsible for the loss of her family members.
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