I think I have more or less mentioned one of the things that I struggle with in my previous post.
Even though I say that I love to write, and I really do (lol), it doesn't mean that I don't experience difficulty whenever I want to write. For me, since I was young, I am scared to make mistakes even though I've heard the saying 'learning from your mistakes' countless times, it's very hard to heed those words of wisdom when you're actually doing it.
Currently, I have two fanfiction stories: one published since 2013 and another from 2 months ago. Not to mention I have like at least 4 story ideas right now. I think for every writer, once you have the plot in your head, it's wise to quickly jot them down before you completely forget about it. The thing is, I think most people have the false belief that writers magically vomit out the whole story from the first page to the last page in one sitting. That's definitely not true! Writers experience loss of inspiration from time to time and it's quite hard to sustain the excitement for the story felt in the beginning, especially when you experience severe writers' block. Even though it's only a draft, I still feel reluctant to start writing cos I know that I'm going to make a number of mistakes on my first try and even though I know I'm going to edit it later on, I still feel afraid to write.
Also, writer's block can definitely be depressing that it's not even a joke. Your mind feels completely blank and it scares the heck out of you. It makes you feel as if you're worthless and doubtful of your writing ability. I know it may sound dramatic but I'm sure some writers can relate to what I'm saying. So, yeah, this is one of the things that I struggle with in life:writer's block.
Another thing that I struggle with is stage fright. It's really funny that I still experience stage fright even after acting in front of hundreds of people in a national play. I extremely dislike giving presentations where I have to speak in front of a lot of people. It's just that I dislike having the attention focused on me and my problem is that I tend to get nervous easily and as a result, unintentionally speed through my lines to get it over and done with as quickly as possible. I'm still trying to improve on that. For me, I can't present spontaneously. So, I always have to prepare myself mentally and come up with a script cos my mind tends to go completely blank when facing the audience.
Finally, another thing that I struggle with is waking up early in the morning everyday. Admittedly, I'm a lazy person by nature. Ever since I've gotten an Iphone, I've been lazing around more often and using my phone to do a lot of random stuff from watching videos to visiting certain websites and checking out some forums. Owning a smartphone can be completely destructive to your life and I'm not even kidding. Yeah so I'm trying to reduce my usage of my smartphone and spend more attention on my studies and focus on completing my assignments with the best of my ability and get amazing grades and make my parents proud.
I know that I cheated by giving two more things but hey, it feels really therapeutic to actually type out my problems. So, I'm thankful for this writing challenge. And, it has already been three days and I think I've been doing a great job so far!
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